almost got killed by accounting.

is getting harder and harder.

duno how i'm going to survive for UT2 on fri...

i'm so scared ~~~

i hate repeating things again and again when things that i hav said are so clear and obvious.

i'm so tired in repeating clear, obvious and unimportant things.

i thought, i suppose, i give up.

正努力的寻找以往的我

正努力的往没有你的日子前去

“你最珍贵”

“You are beautiful"

RJ.
don know why nowadays the fac love reading long RJs?

abit pissed off lor.
especially the accounting fac.
keep asking me give details on the rj.
say i can talk more and explain more about it.
n pls lor the rj was connected to the day's lesson.
shouldn't be looking at rj as one of the grading criteria.
His comments to me was very lorso n long winded lor...
how can a man be so long winded. n has so many things to say.
but den luckily he din gave me a C for that.
haha!! otherwise i'll be showing my charcoal face.
haha!! :p

so tire... counting down to the holidays.
i really really need the rest.

又再次想起你

你的一切的一切

I need FUN

I need TIME

I need REST

I need SLEEP

I need SHOPPING

I need MOTIVATION

I need ... I need...

without any notice holidays for the first half semester is coming le.

we are going to finish 7 weeks of problems le.

yes! 2 weeks of holidays.

but don know with these 2 weeks holidays, am i able to get enough rest and enough time do what i have been wanting to do for the past 7 weeks?

with the holidays coming which means the date due for 1st semester's FYP is getting nearer.

for the past 6 weeks, was life was almost between home n sch. n sometimes meeting the girls for dinner.

it goes like this

1) dragged myself out of bed by 6.15

2) rushed out of the bus by 6.50 to catch the 7.02 bus

3) leave sch by 5

4) reach home at 6 plus

5) dinner and bathe and RJ

6) by the time i settle down everything is 9 already.

those are for mon, tue, thurs and fri.

on wed, is my FYP day.

so go back to sch for FYP meetings in the morning and reach home in the afternoon which is already 5 plus

sat and sunday

no sch but FYP again.

meeting ping and jy for FYP disscussions on some saturdays and sundays.

it looks pathetic rite?? haha!! as if i'm suffering like that.

but there are also some days that i went out with frens for leisure lah.

but i think what i need now is sleep bah... haha!!

haven been able to slack on wed, sat and sun afternoons.

haven been able to sleep for 10 hrs.

haha!! :-)

I love them not bcos they gave me exp present.

I love them bcos; e things tt they gave me cannot be bought with money:
they stand up for me when i get bullied.
they protect me when they feel tt someone is hurting me.
they get sad when i'm sad.
they cry for me when i get hurt.
they laugh with me when i'm happy.
they cheer me up when i'm not happy.
they stand by me when i need someone to be by my side.
they are always there for me when i need them
they will feel troubled when i felt troubled.
they, not only share my joy but also many many unpleasant things.
they care, worried and love me.

its GREAT to hav them by my side, though there r certain things tt they r not able to help me with.
They tried their best n do everything they can jus to make me happy n forget abt certain things.

in return, i'll do e same for them.
I'll love them even more.
cheers!

* really wish to walk into my dream but its not here at all.
* but dun worry, i'll move on

OK! pple,
after pestering al for quite long.
my pictures are uploaded on to the 20th de post le.
go n have look at our beautiful pics. :)

jus feel like slapping myself sometimes!

**wish that...

i hav done watever i could.

n i'm stopping now

i'm stopping bcos

i'm tired.

a memorable day indeed

met xin n yin at bedok, at first thought of going to the bedok's KTV but it was fully booked le.

so went on to book Kbox @ suntec. :)

went shopping for awhile before going to the Kbox.

they sang 3 versions of birthday songs for me.

first was cantonese, then eng n lastly chinese.

thank you girls.

enjoyed it alot!

jus like the feelings and the way we entertain ourselves.

after that we met meow at raffles city de sushi tei.

we ate the food till our stomach were going to explode.

haha!

N

there was a birthday cake!!.

my own birthday cake!! :)

N

meow sang me a short birthday song.

cos left her din sing me birthday song nia.

haha!! thank you!. :)

N yes!

the cake was not wasted.

my sis ate a slice of cake the moment i get home.

i still enjoyed my day without the presence of somebody.

without the wish that i have been looking forward too.

i felt that the most imp thing is to celebrate my birthday with u girls.

i enjoyed it alot.

n YES! we r still counting the yrs. hope to be forever.

erm! the photos will be uploaded at a later time.

it will be posted on the 20th post.

good nite pple!

i'm going to sleep le.

perhaps becos of u;

i discover tt i hav alot of pple who love n care for me

they can cry, be happy n delighted, be angry and sad, be troubled for me

they stand by me when i need them

they shared happy n unhappy moments with me

as the time going to get near 12am, i'm ready to give up.

thank u for the happy memories. i'll keep them with me.

12.00am: happy birthday to myself. haha!
first wishes cums from hui xin!
：）
first celebration cums from RP :)
：）
Thanks pple.
Thanks for the birthday ice-cream cake. (photos to be uploaded)
Thanks for the presents. I'll do the puzzle all by myself. :)

刚才所许的愿。。
会在今天12am之前实现吗？

MY Birthday CeleBration

^21st May celebration with the girls^

^ Presents recieved^

^Celebration for me n ping

with RP @swensens^

Friday

Met my frens at woodlands station to walk to school.

a topic made us so high, early in the morning.Quite unusual as compared with the other mornings.

Normally we look half-dead. :)

The topic was on blog. Yes al’s de blog.
Don know
why this person can be so free to look through every month’s post n tok abt a post that was posted one year ago.
why this person suddenly tok abt something which was so long ago, n somemore he/she wasn’t involve at all.
Why this person wans to get involve into something which is non of his/her business.
Haiz…
Must be nth better to do.
Too free, till dono how spend time.
Nvm al.

hack care abt this kind of pple.

though i'm very curious who was that and would like to know what are the replies

Keep the blog to our own pple can le.
Pple. I think we should do away with all the links that we hav on our blog :)

on the way back home heard this from the radio.

"人啊不能吃得太饱，因为如果吃得太饱的话就是没事做"

so the person must be damn free, other than eating, he/she has got nth to do le.
thats why he/she went to look for trouble.
correct? :)

倒数第二天

Thursday

It’s the first time, I shiver and tremble in cold after showering in the morning.
Soooo cold. :~
PP presentation at 4.30 in the afternoon.
Mind still blank.
Felt that I’m not prepared at all. :(

O yah
The supervisor emailed us n apologise that he did not turn up for the meeting yesterday.
He is soooo “good” sia. Replied msg when the thing is over liao.
But
Cant blame him lah, cos he’s sick.

After lunch time, while going up to class with the lunch khakis.
We gossip abt sth that is SO BAD.
GIRLS, don be so bad hor. Though I’m involved in it.
But
Cannot be like that.
Can be harsh and bad towards that person.
But
cannot be that bad towards to the other person.
Must help the other person.
U all know who I’m referring to hor. :)

PP presentation.
Those blue display was very dotz.
So shaky de. Like falling down at any point of time sia.
I presented for about half an hour.
The assessor says my report structure is good and clear.
She understands what my report is talking about. :)

But then

the report lacks of some details and persuasiveness.
That’s why
She asked questions. (she told me de)

PP is done

CE points are done too

left with: FYPs and passing of all modules.

倒数第三天。

时间越来越近。

Wed

Met weiping and jing yin to do FYP.

We r supposed to meet our supervisor

But

Our supervisor flied us a kite.

But nvm

Without u we are still able to work out our codings!Jing yin manage to solve the errors with the help from her fren.

Thank you, Jing Yin’s fren. :)

That’s a great achievement for this week.

Left the library at ard 3.30 to meet xy n xin at bedok.

Yes! KTV

Ping don envy me k?

haha! $6 per person for 3 hrs, quite cheap.

But

The system is… the mic also…

But

Wat can we expect when its jus $6 nia.

Yah.Xy, u need to work harder in order to let xin’s dream cum true.Haha!!

Yes! Mac again.

There’s at least one day in a week that I’ll be having mac as meal.

But as usual, no matter where we are, what we are having.

There will still be gossip, chat, jokes, stories and imaginations :p :) :x

Went home after the dinner.

Spend some time at home to read through my pp poster before going to bed.

Cause its my pp presentation the next day le.

I’m sooo scare.

Help me!!

倒数第四天

会发生什么事呢？？

因为你
我才这么累。

Monday 15/05/06

went to meet xue yin n hui xin at tampines for dinner after school.

xin! U r rite!

We nv fail to entertain ourselves with all the happenings be it they are in the past or are happening it rite now. :)

we can repeat them over and over again but still felt they are fun and fulfilling.

Haha!

I think no matter what happen, we are still able to enjoy ourselves bah. :p

CATS…

when I was walking towards my house after parting with xue yin, I saw a cat hiding at one corner jus infront of my house.

The cat was looking at me and meowing at me lor.

Had a feeling that if I’m going to walk toward my house it will follow me de.

So I purposely walked one BIG round by the car pouch which is next to my house hoping that the cat would walked away when it sees that I din walk towards it.

But then who knows!

walk ONE BIG round saw the cat standing somewhere near my door steps, and again staring at me!!

No choice but to call home for help!

Haha!!

called home, my sis answered.

I told her to come n help me, at first she was thinking what had happened to me, haha!!

when I said got cat, help me to chase away the cat; I know she was dotz liao… haha!!

if the cat don meow n stare at me, I wont be that scare de lor.

Tuesday 16/05/06

accounting day again.

very stressful again.

a day of numbers again.

but there's a sense of statisfactory today. :)

manage to do journal entries and T- accounts. :)

jia you!! more to go!!

stayed back after lesson to FYP. Yes! FYP again

stayed till 8 plus and reached home at ard 9.45pm.

i'm SOOOooo tired but not hungry at all.

not hungry i think becos i ate choc or becos i'm very tire and stress out bah.

rite now after finishing this blog, going to search for more resources.

hopefully can find some resources.

倒数第五天

心情已慢慢恢复了

总会把自己弄得很累很累

went for fyp mtg in the afternoon.

met ping at the condo bus stop, to take bus to marina square for fyp!!

BUT...

i think i got the wrong bus to take.

i check to look for wat bus should take from my house to go marina square, checked n it say that i can take 28 from my house n stop at suntec convention hall.

BUT...

when we took the bus. it took us to toa payoh central.

very dotz!!

wat a silly mistake i hav made sia...

but luckily we both were having bus concession.

SO...

took it as an excursion.

haha! sorry ping.

u know i'm an road idoit and no sense of direction de lah. :)

ping n i plan to go ZOO to celecbrate our birthdays on sat.

pple u all wan to join in?? :)

as usual the things that we cover for fyp today is still very little but today hav made a little progress.

must jia you!!

我是带着期待，

紧张和害怕来迎接那一天。

我所期待的会实现

还是最害怕的事情会发生？

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i hate pple givin me lame excuses.

the progression of fyp is damn slow. i felt that we r behind alot.

think we r also on the wrong track.

pple are doing project plan but we are...

problems cum after another.

the hrs put in for fyp per week is less than 8 hrs.

haiz!!

i need motivations. where can i find them?

心真的真的很酸。。。

我的愿望会实现吗？

quick pple!! wish me "happy birthday" haha!!

today is my birthday in the lunar chinese calendar. haha!! so quick!! wish me happy birthday!! haha!! hmmm... my mum cooked red eggs for me N i ate 2 without the yolks. =)

during lunch time weiping asked if wan to celebrate birthday with her anot. of cus wan lah, our birthdays so near... haha!! but not on my actual day cos i wan to leave this day to the girls. =) so suggested on sat. this day is neither one of our actual day... haha!!

xy called when i was waiting for bus to go home. she called n say don go n watch movie on sat le. wat a fickled minded girl? think not going to meet le bah unless the rest still wan to meet without her. :p hmmmm... nvm. since the guys say nvm le. haha!! n also called to say they already "booked" next sunday le. haha!! yeah, i know, i hav already leave the day for u all le... haha!!

pple, saw my stars?? :-)

三月的计划， 没成功进行。

四月的计划，没成功进行。

五月的计划，你还记得吗？

i wan to sleep all the way till the next morning...
is not that i don wan to sleep or busy till cant sleep; is just not able to fall asleep.
i don know why is it so difficult for me to fall asleep.
ate 2 painkiller pills, pills will cause drownzy and made me feel sleepy, but... u all know lah. eaten liao still cant sleep. tossing up and down, left and right =(

so terrible and uncomfortable.

UT:- consumer physchology. Ut client is down today again. use hand to write on scripts. its been a long time i din use the social studies exam speed. 2 essay qns for today's UT. 15 marks each.
hmmm... think my handwriting still readable and understandable but its very ugly... haha!! as compared to the social studies and history paper.

its jus the 4th week of sch nia... n things are spoiling in the sch... toilet bowls got choked with toilet paper, the handle of the toilet entrance door came out (almost got stucked inside the toilet), lift spoil... haiz... see lah. it looks so nice on the outside of the school but inside was like shit...

i wan to sleep... i wan to fall asleep...

i wan to sleep all the way to the time i'm suppose to wake up.

SOoOoOoO tired

忘了我了吗？忘了你所对我说的事了吗？？

给自己的期限快到了。。。

Fri 05/05

Have you ever thought of creating a new product? What would it be? Do you think it can be successful?

^ wat a head cracking rj… haiz… thought can quickly finish rj before the start of UT so that no need to face the com when at home but then… with this rj; how to lei?? Empty brain. Yah. can reply “no” to this question but then if the ans is going to be like that… the grading is going to be very… u all know lahz…

UT at any point of time doesn’t seems to work at all.

8.30 in the morning?? Is going to cause chaos along the way to sch, where pple rush n rush, squeeze n squeeze, wait n wait… haah!! Then hav to wake up pretty early also… so far 3 weeks of sch, has been late for about 70% of the lessons liao… haha!! Broke my record sia… the days that I’m not late were the days having sent to sch by my dad. So if UT in the morning is out of question.

UT after class at 4.15pm?? is going to be very super duper tire after a whole day of lesson. Energies n juices are all drained off… haiz… but then u are able to be in for the UT in time… haha!! That was the only benefit for having UT in the afternoon, after sch.

Having UT in the new campus… damn damn dotz!! Damn damn ZZzzZZzz. Hav been downloading and installing the UT client repeatedly. Versions kept changing and changing, don even know what they changed also…

The stupid passport photo that was taken years ago appeared at the top right hand corner of the window so dotz… don know put the photo there for wat sia… we are having UT lor not having wat interviewing lor… so more the photo looks so ugly n scary. Scary because imagine u have to look at ur own photos when taking the UT. Very de ZzZZZzzzZ.

Today's accounting ut. Think going to be dead this time. 10 marks for the first qn, 5 marks for 2nd qn AND 40 MARKS for the LAST qn. Sooooo scary. Hav made a lot of careless mistakes for the last qn n don hav time to finish up the 2nd qn… so dotz!! Haiz…

你对我所说的一切 会实现吗？会不会只是说说而已？？对我来说一切好像是一场梦。我真的希望不只是一场美梦。。。
我是不快乐的。 :(

wednesday 03/05/06

buzzed thru north south east west...

was in woodlands frm 10 to 2 for FYP. at last jy got the ans for the fyp. Still got to stick with the current one. after that went off with ping for lunch at causeway point and then after that went for a walk at the causepoint and gossip all the way togther with al... :) the 3 38s... so when cum to 2pm, three of us split our ways... me went off to meet xy n xin at orchard whereas al n ping went back to sch for dance practices.

met the 2 girls at the orchard. at that moment forgotten everything that was unhappy for FYP. :) love u 2!! :) feel so happy n relaxed having u 2.

after shopping for awhile in orchard we set off to see our lady queen in the KK hospital. has got a hard time waiting for cabs!!! haha!! but then its still quite fun lah. With them, everything is fun.
chat and do some ah sum's chores in the hospital... haha!! as usual. :) then rush down to the holland v sushi tei to meet ah meow n her bf jia tong for dinner. Again a hard time in the process of waiting for cab.

sushi tei holland village!! miss it so much!! saw winnie n ah foo. chatted with them for awhile... so happy to see them after so long... haha!! n they still remember me... winnie still remember that my eyes get infections often n asked if they are better.
sushi tei changed alot sia. becum so beautiful n nice... think will go back to work when i graduate from rp. haha... think going to work part-time n think of what to do in future after graduate. :)

think going to be sick soon... throats are not feeling well.

对你的期待与盼望； 我已慢慢开始觉得失望与绝望了。我们能回到以往的快乐吗？好累喔。。。:(

30/04

should say that was the most fulfilling day eversince i started school. :) went shopping with my sis, mum n cousin at parkway parade. bought 2 pairs of shoes at bedok n at parkway. :p hav got a sense of satisfactory...

went to watch basket ball match with my dad n sis after dinner at geyland sports hall. it has been a long time since the last match, i think the last match that we watched was last year bah. it was the grand final. so saw some familiar faces on the match... :)

01/05

found out that my blog entries recently looked rather bei ai... but really felt bei ai. went thru some blogs, think i hav neglected some important pple in my life. sorry. do catch up n meet up soon, k?