抒发自己的感情有错吗？用些苛刻的字又有错吗？
文字是用来抒发人的心情。

thanks to someone for making my day so gloomy.
thanks to that person, if not i'll be neglecting this blog. :)

i thought u are on our side when we were chatting.
i thought u wont betray us
i thought u are like us, doesnt like her as well
yah, it is all i thought.
after today, i see thru you thoroughly.
i'm so sad that i really feel like crying.


the world is never fair.
the mister up there taught me something new today, never to trust someone easily
she might be on the same side with u when we chat.
she might agree with you on everything you said.
but in the end she is still a bitch.

well, i'm just writing feelings and thoughts on this blog.
dont come tell me, that's wrong to write those things on blog.
dont come tell me you have xin bing or shen jing bing.
its all nonsense! i din write name! i din mention who is it!


i guess i just have to keep everything to myself.

是时候了。。。

将跟2009年说byebye le...

well, 2009 doesn't seems bad for me... but there are still things that made me happy, sad, excited and angry.

in this year, there were alot of shocking news.

first was my grandpa, he had a slight stroke, but thank god he is recovering now.

next, the leaving of ilisha, i missed her so much whenever i saw her pic, the drawings and crafts she did for me. i hope she is doing well, learning and speaking mandarin well.

followed by, my third uncle from my mum side, he was diagnosed with heart problem, there blockage, he had to went through a bypass, again thank god, he is recovering too.

the most shocking news of the year will be the passing of my granduncle. he was admitted to the hospital after having stomache for several days, he was operated immediately. few days after the operation, his kidney, liver and heart failed him. he went in on 9th nov and passed away on the 8th day. it was very shocking, in my impression, he has always been very strong and healthy. we would always visit him on the 2nd day of cny. i felt sad for him. he and his wife do not have any children, they have a god-daughter. i was very stress and depressed for that period of time. I had an exam on the 19th a day before sending him, i wasnt able to go down to pay respect until the day before sending him off as i was busy working and preparing for the exams.


of course, there are good things that happened. I fulfilled on of my dreams; to further my studies and i passed my exams! though i did not passed with flying colors, still, i got B-! it was a relived for me. hoo...

i have bonus for this year. this is my first time getting bonus! i got increment in beginning of the year. next year, there will increment too.. that will 3rd increment since i join the school. wohoo! wonderful...

5B also celebrated 10years of friendship, and yes! we are continuing to count on the years. though we don like adding numbers to our age.... amazingly, we had 2 chalets this year. lets count on xueyin to have a chaet on her birthday next year!

xueyin's sis got married 2 weeks ago, congratulations to her. the 5Bs attended. we had alot of fun.

i think there were too many good things that happen. i had forgotten some of them... :p


我只希望在新的一年里，我身边所有的人都健康开心快乐！我不想再失去任何一个人。
而我呢，我希望自己能够更健康，向今年一样开心快乐， 一切顺利。
我们一起迎接2010年吧！！！

因为她，我的眼眶湿湿的

din see ilisha for a week. whole family is busy with moving into new house so she wasn't in school for the past one week. missed her alot. today she came. her mum brought her to sch. she came in and hugged me tightly after putting her bag down. this poor girl, she has been hugging me for the whole day. she knew she might not be able to do that after she leaves. though she is smiling, i know she is feeling sad inside.

after break-time, we told the kids that ilisha might be leaving because there's no one able to send her to sch, the kids were sad and some offered to ask their dad or mum to send ilisha to sch. we told them, if ilisha cant get a proper transport to send her to sch, this fri might be her last day, so we practiced farewell songs. this two songs almost made me cry. my eyes were watery as we sang the song, i had to find excuse to go out of the class to calm down. is not as if this is the first we sang this song, but i really feel sad to have her to leave us. i really really hope that she can really stay and graduate together with her class in dec.

i will pray hard for you. i might burst into tears. praying ...

2009年8月21日 阴天

虽然在学校里每天要做的事情都差不多一样，但是每一天所发生的大小事都让我非常‘期待’。正因为如此做了两年；每天早起，搭约40分钟的车程从没让我感到厌烦或乏味。到目前，我还是超爱这份工作。

就拿今天来说吧！和往常一样，8.30am 就到学校为这一天的课程做准备。今天要教小朋友烹饪（chocolate dipped）。一切都进行得很顺利，直到下午班，接近下课时，事情发生了。我只能说一切都很drama.无法想象在电视剧看到的，竟然发生在我眼前，而且由我亲自处理。。。天啊!!

今天我的心情是喜、怒、哀、乐！
喜：K2班的小朋友的华文的水平已达到小一水准了！
　　：Ｋ１－Ｒｉｔｃｈｉｅ　的华文一鸣惊人！
怒：气自己没有以更好的方式解决今天的ｄｒａｍａ事件
哀：发生事后，心情跌落谷底（先声明不是我造成的）
乐：整个烹饪活动都很顺利，教得很开心。（大家都吃得很开心）

I will miss Ilisha :(

Last friday ilisha, din come to sch. She came today and this is our conversation.
me: what happen? why din you come last friday?
Ilisha: i went to a new sch near mummy's office.
me: you are going to new sch, not coming here anymore?
ilisha: *nod*
me: you don wan me anymore?
ilisha:*shake* i want you

I din think too much at first, she still a kid afterall, not sure if she really understand what is happening.

after sch, we received a letter, from Ilisha mummy, Ilisha is leaving due to logistic problem, they will be moving to serangoo garden thus no choice. Sad... i almost cried. i remembered when i first join the school, she is someone who really scared of chinese and she's 3 years old then. she likes to sa jiao all the time. but i guess, because of my interaction with her in the toilet, i taught her her first sentence "好了" from then on, she started attending chinese class, we became very close. she will always hug me, sit on my lap and argue with me.

she will leaving in sept, i hope she will always remember me and miss me. :(

i found a volunteer work at children's home but it is schedule next year june. anyone want to join me? let me know, i'll tell you how to register. :)