Treat pple the way u wanted to be treated.
You can don't show me any respect
BUT
If u show disrespect to pple ard me especially to my parents, I will not respect u at all.
E fact is I'll treat u the way u treated them.
SO
don blame me for being ill-mannered or hard-hearted.

I don't understand why u keep asking me to visit her in hospital.
There's a big contrast in the attitude, the way they treat u n her lor.

Similarities:
- surgery
- hospital
- people ard u

Differences:
- treatment
- care
- concern
- daughter and daughter –in law

Calls have been coming in to ask about her
BUT
when u are having the surgery, I don't remember hearing any phone calls or EVEN concerns frm them.
People's attitude to u was like "u brought it upon urself " but to her was "so kelian"
ONLY
ur blood related pple show great concern to u.
The eldest of the family EVEN show u attitude when u show concern for her.

WAT THE!!!
And HEY pretender, don show me attitude over the phone when I answered u well-mannerly ok?!
stop pretending and being a 马屁精！

Wan me to go n visit her after my sch and my accounting UT today? 等久久。
U can easily compare de, when jie jie was in hospital for six months before she gave up n leave us; I will visit her no matter how tire, how busy or stress I am and will even sacrifice outings with frens; because she shows great attitude and respect to pple ard me.
But for her? 哈哈！！I would rather stay at home to do spring cleaning or pretend I’m busy!

Today's accounting UT really dotz sia.
Think I'm going to fail again.
OMG.
After finishing the excel sheet, my mind goes blank for the next 2 qns. N thanks huh, I'm left with 15 mins with the 2 qns.
I stared and dazed at the 2 qns before forcing myself to read and understand what the qns wan.
The worst is, my accounting fac said we can certainly finished the UT in 30 mins. Thanks huh!

Actually wan to meet xin and yin for dinner, but after the UT my mind is totally stuck don know how to structure and plan e time for e dinner.

Michelle says: xiaohan's nice temper is gone…
Was a little sad when I heard this but was glad that she discovered and told me abt it.
Well, I think and feel that way too.
Ever since things happened one after another and also after some thing happened, I have been having quick tempers.
I'll get upset or fared-up over small things at home and sometimes outside which I think I wouldn't have done it in the past.
I think the people in my house suffered a lot too, especially my mum n my sis bah, I often gave them glum, annoyed, charcoal face and annoyed answers but they have been showing great tolerance. :)
I'm going to find my good tolerance, my nice temper and my smiles back.
+ breath deeply +

+ breath deeply +
U r the one who add on to my smiles and u r also the one who took away my smiles
trying hard…
Walking out and leaving dreams tt hav u
I’m going to find myself back…
+ breath deeply +

almost got killed by accounting.

is getting harder and harder.

duno how i'm going to survive for UT2 on fri...

i'm so scared ~~~

i hate repeating things again and again when things that i hav said are so clear and obvious.

i'm so tired in repeating clear, obvious and unimportant things.

i thought, i suppose, i give up.

正努力的寻找以往的我

正努力的往没有你的日子前去

“你最珍贵”

“You are beautiful"

RJ.
don know why nowadays the fac love reading long RJs?

abit pissed off lor.
especially the accounting fac.
keep asking me give details on the rj.
say i can talk more and explain more about it.
n pls lor the rj was connected to the day's lesson.
shouldn't be looking at rj as one of the grading criteria.
His comments to me was very lorso n long winded lor...
how can a man be so long winded. n has so many things to say.
but den luckily he din gave me a C for that.
haha!! otherwise i'll be showing my charcoal face.
haha!! :p

so tire... counting down to the holidays.
i really really need the rest.

又再次想起你

你的一切的一切

I need FUN

I need TIME

I need REST

I need SLEEP

I need SHOPPING

I need MOTIVATION

I need ... I need...

without any notice holidays for the first half semester is coming le.

we are going to finish 7 weeks of problems le.

yes! 2 weeks of holidays.

but don know with these 2 weeks holidays, am i able to get enough rest and enough time do what i have been wanting to do for the past 7 weeks?

with the holidays coming which means the date due for 1st semester's FYP is getting nearer.

for the past 6 weeks, was life was almost between home n sch. n sometimes meeting the girls for dinner.

it goes like this

1) dragged myself out of bed by 6.15

2) rushed out of the bus by 6.50 to catch the 7.02 bus

3) leave sch by 5

4) reach home at 6 plus

5) dinner and bathe and RJ

6) by the time i settle down everything is 9 already.

those are for mon, tue, thurs and fri.

on wed, is my FYP day.

so go back to sch for FYP meetings in the morning and reach home in the afternoon which is already 5 plus

sat and sunday

no sch but FYP again.

meeting ping and jy for FYP disscussions on some saturdays and sundays.

it looks pathetic rite?? haha!! as if i'm suffering like that.

but there are also some days that i went out with frens for leisure lah.

but i think what i need now is sleep bah... haha!!

haven been able to slack on wed, sat and sun afternoons.

haven been able to sleep for 10 hrs.

haha!! :-)

I love them not bcos they gave me exp present.

I love them bcos; e things tt they gave me cannot be bought with money:
they stand up for me when i get bullied.
they protect me when they feel tt someone is hurting me.
they get sad when i'm sad.
they cry for me when i get hurt.
they laugh with me when i'm happy.
they cheer me up when i'm not happy.
they stand by me when i need someone to be by my side.
they are always there for me when i need them
they will feel troubled when i felt troubled.
they, not only share my joy but also many many unpleasant things.
they care, worried and love me.

its GREAT to hav them by my side, though there r certain things tt they r not able to help me with.
They tried their best n do everything they can jus to make me happy n forget abt certain things.

in return, i'll do e same for them.
I'll love them even more.
cheers!

* really wish to walk into my dream but its not here at all.
* but dun worry, i'll move on