i wan to sleep all the way till the next morning...
is not that i don wan to sleep or busy till cant sleep; is just not able to fall asleep.
i don know why is it so difficult for me to fall asleep.
ate 2 painkiller pills, pills will cause drownzy and made me feel sleepy, but... u all know lah. eaten liao still cant sleep. tossing up and down, left and right =(

so terrible and uncomfortable.

UT:- consumer physchology. Ut client is down today again. use hand to write on scripts. its been a long time i din use the social studies exam speed. 2 essay qns for today's UT. 15 marks each.
hmmm... think my handwriting still readable and understandable but its very ugly... haha!! as compared to the social studies and history paper.

its jus the 4th week of sch nia... n things are spoiling in the sch... toilet bowls got choked with toilet paper, the handle of the toilet entrance door came out (almost got stucked inside the toilet), lift spoil... haiz... see lah. it looks so nice on the outside of the school but inside was like shit...

i wan to sleep... i wan to fall asleep...

i wan to sleep all the way to the time i'm suppose to wake up.

SOoOoOoO tired

忘了我了吗？忘了你所对我说的事了吗？？

给自己的期限快到了。。。

Fri 05/05

Have you ever thought of creating a new product? What would it be? Do you think it can be successful?

^ wat a head cracking rj… haiz… thought can quickly finish rj before the start of UT so that no need to face the com when at home but then… with this rj; how to lei?? Empty brain. Yah. can reply “no” to this question but then if the ans is going to be like that… the grading is going to be very… u all know lahz…

UT at any point of time doesn’t seems to work at all.

8.30 in the morning?? Is going to cause chaos along the way to sch, where pple rush n rush, squeeze n squeeze, wait n wait… haah!! Then hav to wake up pretty early also… so far 3 weeks of sch, has been late for about 70% of the lessons liao… haha!! Broke my record sia… the days that I’m not late were the days having sent to sch by my dad. So if UT in the morning is out of question.

UT after class at 4.15pm?? is going to be very super duper tire after a whole day of lesson. Energies n juices are all drained off… haiz… but then u are able to be in for the UT in time… haha!! That was the only benefit for having UT in the afternoon, after sch.

Having UT in the new campus… damn damn dotz!! Damn damn ZZzzZZzz. Hav been downloading and installing the UT client repeatedly. Versions kept changing and changing, don even know what they changed also…

The stupid passport photo that was taken years ago appeared at the top right hand corner of the window so dotz… don know put the photo there for wat sia… we are having UT lor not having wat interviewing lor… so more the photo looks so ugly n scary. Scary because imagine u have to look at ur own photos when taking the UT. Very de ZzZZZzzzZ.

Today's accounting ut. Think going to be dead this time. 10 marks for the first qn, 5 marks for 2nd qn AND 40 MARKS for the LAST qn. Sooooo scary. Hav made a lot of careless mistakes for the last qn n don hav time to finish up the 2nd qn… so dotz!! Haiz…

你对我所说的一切 会实现吗？会不会只是说说而已？？对我来说一切好像是一场梦。我真的希望不只是一场美梦。。。
我是不快乐的。 :(

wednesday 03/05/06

buzzed thru north south east west...

was in woodlands frm 10 to 2 for FYP. at last jy got the ans for the fyp. Still got to stick with the current one. after that went off with ping for lunch at causeway point and then after that went for a walk at the causepoint and gossip all the way togther with al... :) the 3 38s... so when cum to 2pm, three of us split our ways... me went off to meet xy n xin at orchard whereas al n ping went back to sch for dance practices.

met the 2 girls at the orchard. at that moment forgotten everything that was unhappy for FYP. :) love u 2!! :) feel so happy n relaxed having u 2.

after shopping for awhile in orchard we set off to see our lady queen in the KK hospital. has got a hard time waiting for cabs!!! haha!! but then its still quite fun lah. With them, everything is fun.
chat and do some ah sum's chores in the hospital... haha!! as usual. :) then rush down to the holland v sushi tei to meet ah meow n her bf jia tong for dinner. Again a hard time in the process of waiting for cab.

sushi tei holland village!! miss it so much!! saw winnie n ah foo. chatted with them for awhile... so happy to see them after so long... haha!! n they still remember me... winnie still remember that my eyes get infections often n asked if they are better.
sushi tei changed alot sia. becum so beautiful n nice... think will go back to work when i graduate from rp. haha... think going to work part-time n think of what to do in future after graduate. :)

think going to be sick soon... throats are not feeling well.

对你的期待与盼望； 我已慢慢开始觉得失望与绝望了。我们能回到以往的快乐吗？好累喔。。。:(

30/04

should say that was the most fulfilling day eversince i started school. :) went shopping with my sis, mum n cousin at parkway parade. bought 2 pairs of shoes at bedok n at parkway. :p hav got a sense of satisfactory...

went to watch basket ball match with my dad n sis after dinner at geyland sports hall. it has been a long time since the last match, i think the last match that we watched was last year bah. it was the grand final. so saw some familiar faces on the match... :)

01/05

found out that my blog entries recently looked rather bei ai... but really felt bei ai. went thru some blogs, think i hav neglected some important pple in my life. sorry. do catch up n meet up soon, k?

trying to squeeze things out of my brain for my rj again...

a summarize for the week...

• mentally tired
• unsettled problems are piling up, dono how to face it also
• very fan!
• messy
• blur
• feel like crying
• wasn't myself at all
• energies are draining off like hell
• living day by day, accept whatever it comes
• suddenly felt very "bei ai"
• starting to ans questions in class discussions le!! warming up. :)

haiz... where can i find my movtivations??