matters are getting frm bad to worse. i don know why u wan to go ard and complain, say things till as if we wan it like that. my sis is now taking the blame. poor girl. she is now crying in front of me and i don know how to help. u think having things lost is what we wan meh?? u think cause u and ur husband to beat up ur kid is what we wan meh?? u think causing u two to quarrel is wat we wan meh??

as a mother, as an adult do u know that what u hav been doing is so childish?? and u dun worth me respecting. only that u did not try to help, u r making things worse. we only ask u to confirm, to check. we r not asking u to make ur son confess. and one more thing is WE ARE NOT SUSPECTING HIM!!! we had told u we are suspecting it to be theft too. we only wan to make sure and confirm before making a report and its an accurate one. u called my dad before we went into the police station. i heard my dad telling u everything. my dad had told u what we meant, hoping u will understand. but why in the end u make it as if we cause it??

becos of the things that we hav lost, becos of the privacy that has been invaded; our feelings i'm sure u know it. but why do u still wan to do those things to hurt us?? hav u ever thought of the words and actions u had had cause the way pple looked at us?? if its really misscommunication, i hav got nth to say. but to me, i don think is misscommunication and i don know why do u hav to do that. i know my sis don know how to say things out properly and in a correct manner, u should hav asked to speak to an adult or u should let it go as she is still young, u know her, u know what kind of person she is since u see her grow over the years.

i know that u r the youngest of all aunties and uncles, i hav seen them giving in to u, trying their best to help when u met with problems but why don u do the same to the young ones?

i felt disappointed, really disappointed.

in the past, i will always looking forward to sundays. i will always make sure that i get to stay at home to see all the aunties, uncles and cousins. i hav always like the liveliness, the noise,the fun and the feelings when they are ard. but now i drag to see that. because i know that after the whole incident, pple are going to look at us differently. the eyes, the feelings that comes from pple are going to be dotz.

to vone:
thanks for ur understanding. thanks for the concern.

Thanks for all the support from all my dear friends, without u all, i would not know what will happen to me.

while writing the blog this morning, the tears almost burst out from my eyes. the tears will come rolling down not because of the theft but because suddenly felt that the people i'm surrounded with are weird. They are very weird, they are weird in terms of character, actions, thinkings, feelings and etc.

after writing e morning entry, i felt so disappointed in them and i felt so tire at the same time. why do they hav to be like this?? what makes them to be like that?? why are they surrounding me?? why do i hav to know them?? why do they hav to be related to me?? i'm so tire, so tire and fan of their actions, their thinkings, their characters.

at that point time, first time i don wish to be at home, first time wished holidays will end immediately. first time i felt so uncomfortable staying at home, i don wan to stay home n hear the person in the house gossiping softly on the phone with his girls, saying ridiculous and untrue things, hear them making up stories.
before doing all those things, hav they ever thought that they are not that good at all or perhaps worse than the things they hav said?

after seeing the tagboard and the meet-up, i still felt fortunate to hav pple who are normal to me, to hav pple who are able to enlighten and brighten up my day surrounding me.

to huixin and xueyin:
though i din talk much abt the whole incident but really thanks for the care and worries that u all hav for me. meeting up with u 2, had really helped to cheer me up. at the same time i felt so xing fu to hav u 2 by my side.

to my rp friends:
thanks for the concern. really wish to see u all in sch soon. missed the days that we sat down to crap and fool ard during lunch-time. really missed the laughters and smile that everyone has.

THANK U PPLE!! Cont to stay normal, ok?? :-p

Angry + Worry + Frightened

On thurs evening, my sis and I found out that our discman and mp3 were missing. These 2 items were place on the table infront of the window.

Recalling what had happen:-
On wed morning:
I still saw the mp3 when I was keeping my laptop into the laptop pouch, place the mp3 on top of the laptop after that.

Wed nite:
Before going to bed, saw that the charger for the discman was on, I open the window to a small length. In the middle of the night, I suddenly heard sounds from the window, open my eyes but don see anything so close my eyes and back to sleep again.
* for convenience our mp3 and discman were always on the table, discman will always at the same place.

Thurs morning:
My brother came into my room n looked for the discman, as he wans to take the battery in the discman, but then discman was not on table. Both of us din think much as we guess our sister might hav brought it to sch bah.

In the afternoon:
My sis came back from school, she went ard to look for mp3 but den cant find it. Then she came to ask if I got take the discman cos she looking for discman after cant find the mp3. so both of us went searching for the both items. We suspect that there was pple taking the discman thru the window. As for the mp3, we suspect it might be our little cousin playing a fool as he came to my house on wed, as it happens before where he keep our things and hide them in the dustbin so we call our auntie to confirm if it is a foul but then he is still in sch so we cant confirm.

In the evening:
My parents came home, after we told them the whole incident, my dad don believe that is theft by the window cos the person need to bring ladder along if he wans to see and take things thru the window but after my experiment it, my dad reduced that it might be man on top of a man to get the things. So we decided to make police report. But we need to confirm with my little cousin to make sure that the mp3 was not hidden by him so that we can make a correct and accurate report. After our dinner which was 7 already, we prepared to set off to make police report, but before we set off my sis called my auntie to ask if she had check with her son, she scolded my sis: "I need time to do this de rite!! He jus came home only!!! If not I pay u back lah!!" dotz!!! So nvm, we went off to make police report liao.

The angry part of the incident was my that weird auntie and her husband. Pls lor, the purpose for calling and asking, is to make sure that that wasn't a foul. 'It wasnt that we suspect ur kid for stealing or taking. And hello,we r making a police report, we cant make report we are not sure of wat. In terms of mood, our mood is worse than urs lor. Huh?? N u can come telling my dad that u din wan to check becos ur husband was ard. Hello!! So wat if he’s ard?? We wan u to check not ask u to interrogate, to scold or beat ur son. Make till as if we put u in the spot like that.' The worst part was this morning, my mum told me that, my auntie called her sis (which is my big auntie) and complain that we keep hurrying her to check when her husband is ard, then cause the couple to quarrel downstairs. Then cause the couple to beat up my cousin and told my big auntie that her husband ard, the kid wont confess so hav to wait till the next day den can check
'eh!! we only ask u to check and confirm lei, din ask u to beat him up lei, n wat do u all hav to quarrel about?? Moreover u din tell us that u can only ask the next day when his dad is not ard lei, u only say u will ask when he come back from sch lei. How come u all so weird??' now make it as if it was our fault. Now my mum was so angry that she told my big auntie she wan to move house.

Yesterday I was very scare and worry. I don feel sad or feel heart pain the lost of things. Can u all imagine that there's pple standing by the window to watch u sleeping when he’s trying to steal things?? Suddenly I feel that my privacy has been invaded. I din slept well last night, I keep opening my eyes to looked and stare at the window.
Normally u all steal the clothes, slippers that were hanging outside, we already close one eyes, now u all are putting ur hands into my house, next will it be u all walking into my house to carry things?
Suddenly, I felt that my surroundings isnt that safe afterall.

To pple who are reading my blog, always make sure that ur windows and doors are locked properly, no matter u r in or out of the house. No matter wat time, walk to see and confirm when u hear noises, don be like me open eyes see nothing, den close n back to sleep.

I HATE PPLE DOUBTING ME!!!

I really hate pple doubting me!! i really cant stand pple giving me doubtful questions, and doubtful expressions!!! Especially my parents, i really cant stand them doubting me, having been their child for 20 years liao, still don understand me, still don trust me and still wan to doubt me?? really cant stand it man!! those who don know me well, when they doubt or don believe me, i can accept it, i would even accept it with a smile or a laugh but not my parents...

When i wan to do things, i will do it. when i don wan to do, no matter what u do to threaten or trying ur best to persuade me into doing it, i still wont do it... And most importantly, i wont just do it because i wan to show that i'm a good, helpful or nice person!!!

Cant stand it when my dad said: "i beg u lah, don keep sitting infront of the tv and watch tv lah, do help out in house chores..." the moment i hear this i said: "how do u know i din do house chores?" know wat he say?? he say: "cos i din see it mah" wat the!!! then i reply:" of cos lah, when i do it, u weren't ard..." the most angry and annoy is; he gave me a "are u sure?" laugh!! explode liao!!! i shoot him back " if wan to do it infront of u, i would rather don do it!! cos i don like to act and i don need to act!!!"

when u ask me to do this and that, when did i ever din do it? jus that i might not do it or get it done the moment u say lah but i will always make sure that i will get it done... and if i don wan to do it, i will say it out and will refuse to do it!!! i dont need to act to be helpful and nice infront of pple and i wont wan to do that either!!! it feel so hurt when i heard those doubtful statements. the more i think of it, the more disappointed am i. do u have to do this all the time?? don anyhow make doubtful statements when u din see it urself.

Arhh!!!

don't be offended... its jus my opinions...

went for an job interview yesterday, that was the longest interview that i ever had... can believe it?? the interview last for 4 hrs!!! oh man!!! very tiring but quite fulfiling (i should say like that) from the whole interview get to know wat is network marketing, multilevel marketing and single level marketing. knew how it works...

i shall not talk about the products that the company is selling or the business opportunity that the company offers and also the name of the compay. (only those who went to this company for the interview will know about it) i wont say it out because i don wan this line of job to cause a negative reflection on people who read my blog afterall this is a legal job, a legal company and it would be a bright future for those who are interested and has got the calibre in it.

wat's the difference between a normal 9 to 5 job and a network marketing job?? to me, both are the same. both of them need effort, hardwork, dedication, needs time to be put on before you are success and of course it has to be something that you are interested in lah. perhaps salary wise would be a difference bah... but den to me money isn't a problem, interest and feelings is my pirority in choosing a job bah. everything that we are going to do, surely there are challenges, difficulties and stress in them. its jus about how you manage and adapt to it bah. you mange well and adapt well, u get to survive; if u can't, try harder bah, because the world, the society is changingeveryday, every hour, every minute and every seconds...

the business plan and the conditions that the company gave are very attractive, convincing and promising, but den hor to me it doesn't seems to be able to get a stable income for full-time workers, not a stable income for part-time workers, its ok. but there's one thing that the person shown to us, doesn't match to wat he had told us. i wont tok about how unconvincing the thing that he showed was because me myself had not try the job before, wat i experienced was the things that i had heard and see, i did not experienced it by doing it or trying out the job... so i shall not write it in here.

i wont encourage or discourage pple from trying, because afterall this is a job, a job that might suit and might not suit certain people, hav got to see the personalities, values, characters and the interest that a person has. jus like any other jobs... like the jobs in f&b line, education sector, technical sector, banking and finance industry and etc. also jus like any jobs, they have got their own advantages, disadvantages; have their own glory and not glory part; have their own challenges; have their own happiness and not happiness; have their great part and not so great part, its about how pple look at them. :-)