不知不觉已过了五年，不知为什么有时会不禁想起你。
或许是因为对当时你一声不响的离开而感到好奇吧。。。还是因为对你。。。
努力尝试把你忘了，但种种的回忆又会再次浮现在眼前。为什么会这样呢？
你过得还好吗？希望现在的你是健康幸福的。。。。。。

人--- 也只不过是这样而已。
生。老。病。死。

不管你的人生是多么的轰轰烈烈，多么的多姿多彩，死后就同他人一样烧成灰。没了。那就是人生。

虽然人到最后还是会死，但是当中的生活一定要过的多姿多彩，就有如一部电视剧里的台词“人生短短几十年，一定要过得精彩，一定要笑着过每一天”这句话说得容易可是怎样才算精彩，要怎么做才能面带笑容地过每一天呢？不知道。或许就跟他人所说的一样跟着感觉走那么就可以得到快乐吧。



最近学校发生很多事。这些事情发生证明了恶人有恶报。天网恢恢疏而不漏。我对她的遭遇一点也不觉得同情，也不觉得内疚。但对于学校，我就觉得有点内疚，因为我的胆小怕事，而导致他们有些损失，我真的感到抱歉。既然事情已过去，就向前看吧，继续往前走吧~

抒发自己的感情有错吗？用些苛刻的字又有错吗？
文字是用来抒发人的心情。

thanks to someone for making my day so gloomy.
thanks to that person, if not i'll be neglecting this blog. :)

i thought u are on our side when we were chatting.
i thought u wont betray us
i thought u are like us, doesnt like her as well
yah, it is all i thought.
after today, i see thru you thoroughly.
i'm so sad that i really feel like crying.


the world is never fair.
the mister up there taught me something new today, never to trust someone easily
she might be on the same side with u when we chat.
she might agree with you on everything you said.
but in the end she is still a bitch.

well, i'm just writing feelings and thoughts on this blog.
dont come tell me, that's wrong to write those things on blog.
dont come tell me you have xin bing or shen jing bing.
its all nonsense! i din write name! i din mention who is it!


i guess i just have to keep everything to myself.

是时候了。。。

将跟2009年说byebye le...

well, 2009 doesn't seems bad for me... but there are still things that made me happy, sad, excited and angry.

in this year, there were alot of shocking news.

first was my grandpa, he had a slight stroke, but thank god he is recovering now.

next, the leaving of ilisha, i missed her so much whenever i saw her pic, the drawings and crafts she did for me. i hope she is doing well, learning and speaking mandarin well.

followed by, my third uncle from my mum side, he was diagnosed with heart problem, there blockage, he had to went through a bypass, again thank god, he is recovering too.

the most shocking news of the year will be the passing of my granduncle. he was admitted to the hospital after having stomache for several days, he was operated immediately. few days after the operation, his kidney, liver and heart failed him. he went in on 9th nov and passed away on the 8th day. it was very shocking, in my impression, he has always been very strong and healthy. we would always visit him on the 2nd day of cny. i felt sad for him. he and his wife do not have any children, they have a god-daughter. i was very stress and depressed for that period of time. I had an exam on the 19th a day before sending him, i wasnt able to go down to pay respect until the day before sending him off as i was busy working and preparing for the exams.


of course, there are good things that happened. I fulfilled on of my dreams; to further my studies and i passed my exams! though i did not passed with flying colors, still, i got B-! it was a relived for me. hoo...

i have bonus for this year. this is my first time getting bonus! i got increment in beginning of the year. next year, there will increment too.. that will 3rd increment since i join the school. wohoo! wonderful...

5B also celebrated 10years of friendship, and yes! we are continuing to count on the years. though we don like adding numbers to our age.... amazingly, we had 2 chalets this year. lets count on xueyin to have a chaet on her birthday next year!

xueyin's sis got married 2 weeks ago, congratulations to her. the 5Bs attended. we had alot of fun.

i think there were too many good things that happen. i had forgotten some of them... :p


我只希望在新的一年里，我身边所有的人都健康开心快乐！我不想再失去任何一个人。
而我呢，我希望自己能够更健康，向今年一样开心快乐， 一切顺利。
我们一起迎接2010年吧！！！

因为她，我的眼眶湿湿的

din see ilisha for a week. whole family is busy with moving into new house so she wasn't in school for the past one week. missed her alot. today she came. her mum brought her to sch. she came in and hugged me tightly after putting her bag down. this poor girl, she has been hugging me for the whole day. she knew she might not be able to do that after she leaves. though she is smiling, i know she is feeling sad inside.

after break-time, we told the kids that ilisha might be leaving because there's no one able to send her to sch, the kids were sad and some offered to ask their dad or mum to send ilisha to sch. we told them, if ilisha cant get a proper transport to send her to sch, this fri might be her last day, so we practiced farewell songs. this two songs almost made me cry. my eyes were watery as we sang the song, i had to find excuse to go out of the class to calm down. is not as if this is the first we sang this song, but i really feel sad to have her to leave us. i really really hope that she can really stay and graduate together with her class in dec.

i will pray hard for you. i might burst into tears. praying ...

2009年8月21日 阴天

虽然在学校里每天要做的事情都差不多一样，但是每一天所发生的大小事都让我非常‘期待’。正因为如此做了两年；每天早起，搭约40分钟的车程从没让我感到厌烦或乏味。到目前，我还是超爱这份工作。

就拿今天来说吧！和往常一样，8.30am 就到学校为这一天的课程做准备。今天要教小朋友烹饪（chocolate dipped）。一切都进行得很顺利，直到下午班，接近下课时，事情发生了。我只能说一切都很drama.无法想象在电视剧看到的，竟然发生在我眼前，而且由我亲自处理。。。天啊!!

今天我的心情是喜、怒、哀、乐！
喜：K2班的小朋友的华文的水平已达到小一水准了！
　　：Ｋ１－Ｒｉｔｃｈｉｅ　的华文一鸣惊人！
怒：气自己没有以更好的方式解决今天的ｄｒａｍａ事件
哀：发生事后，心情跌落谷底（先声明不是我造成的）
乐：整个烹饪活动都很顺利，教得很开心。（大家都吃得很开心）

I will miss Ilisha :(

Last friday ilisha, din come to sch. She came today and this is our conversation.
me: what happen? why din you come last friday?
Ilisha: i went to a new sch near mummy's office.
me: you are going to new sch, not coming here anymore?
ilisha: *nod*
me: you don wan me anymore?
ilisha:*shake* i want you

I din think too much at first, she still a kid afterall, not sure if she really understand what is happening.

after sch, we received a letter, from Ilisha mummy, Ilisha is leaving due to logistic problem, they will be moving to serangoo garden thus no choice. Sad... i almost cried. i remembered when i first join the school, she is someone who really scared of chinese and she's 3 years old then. she likes to sa jiao all the time. but i guess, because of my interaction with her in the toilet, i taught her her first sentence "好了" from then on, she started attending chinese class, we became very close. she will always hug me, sit on my lap and argue with me.

she will leaving in sept, i hope she will always remember me and miss me. :(

i found a volunteer work at children's home but it is schedule next year june. anyone want to join me? let me know, i'll tell you how to register. :)

i'm back again... after 2 months :)

got to do some updates...
busy, still so busy. the load of stuff in school is already over my head.
i wish i have more hours in school... i wish i have more hands and heads in school.


recently, i have a dream. i have a dream of becoming a volunteer to help out in poor and undeveloped country. hopefully, one day i will have a chance to go there and help the children.


i will be doing a short chinese course at SIM in sept. wish luck. i will be able to survive, since i haven been touching books for a long time.

Sarcastic people. I hate them the most!

i jus wonder why does such pple actually exist in my family. if the family were to be separated would be all thanks to the aunties and the eldest one of the family.

right in front act as if she was so grateful, right the back all kind of ungrateful comes right of ur bloody mouth. i pity my mum. i should have drag her out for shopping.

you are the one who said not to have porridge when asked, yet you act so pitiful in front of your youngest daughter. do you have to be like this? who has been taking care of you, and yet you did not show a little bit of appreciation. how am i suppose to look up to you? on normal days you show attitude to my mum when she shows concern, i had already closed one eye on you, but you went around to talk rubbish to your daughters about my mum. thank you so much! i have learnt how to appreciate my mum better.


trying to act nice infront of me. thank you so much. it does not help at all.
i feel like crying to see such things happen. i hate myself for being soft-hearted. u dont deserve kind treatment.

i had my hair cut short today. S-H-O-R-T!
all thanks to the hot weather. it gave me lotsa encouragement. lol! recently have been real H-O-T! i cant tahan anymore. so say bye bye to my long hair. Felt kind of sad but felt lightened at the same time.
the short hair made my face round chubby. :( hopefully it will grow longer soon. but i liked my fringe alot. :)


what's next?
the kids exams coming up soon.
united nation party coming up. this time round we had already thought of which nation to represent. :) shhh......... a secret. look out for my pics. hopefully i wiill be able to upload. :)
school holidays coming!! o yea!

shall stop here.
jus wondering does my friends still come in here to check out on me? :)
lol!

I'm BACK!

Imagine i haven been blogging for 4 mths. I'm sorry... i nearly forgot abt this blog. Have to thank one of my school parents. She told me she saw my blog. I was so surprise. :) i was like "yah hor, i haven been steping in here for 4 mths, i din even step in to view the blog and ans tags. " Oh dear! the reason being is.... busy? yes. but not to the extend that i'm not able to blog. but because "boys over flowers" the show got me crazy. right now i'm into another shw... so i have watching and watching and watching... heez

4 mths... hmmm... of cus lotsa things happened.
first of sl was back from aus after finishing her studies. hmmm that was feb.
i nv thought that sl and i had so much to talk abt when wp and al went off for some traveling exhitbition for a "little while"
::AL:: i wan to go with you to taiwan. bring me along for free can?


next was xy's birthday.
for the first time we tried korean food.
it was yummy! especially the bbq meat with lettuce!


then was meow's birthday.
we had thai food.
it was yummy too...

then al's birthday.
the celebration was last sat 28th march...
din see andrew and sam for a long long long time. :)
andrew was same as before. CRAPPY! Hey! cant imagine that he is in commando!!
Hopefully, he is the only one of the kind that is in commando if not ladies, we have got to protect ourselves. LOL! :p
the celebration was nice and it was a good gathering for my poly khakis.



with effect from april, my off-days had been to change to thurs and sunday.
of course, all my tuition schedules were in a big mess. especially, my kids have got alot of supplementary classes and CCAs. How i wish my off-days will remain unchange...

alright... will type up right to here...
will come back real soon. ok.

The new school year started off with a mess. both sessions were a mess, i think is the most busy and tiring day that i ever had in school minusing the parties that we had before.

why? becos our admin had to take an urgent leave because of family issues. In the morning session, we had alot of new kids, some of them came in crying afterall they were barely 3 yrs old. leaving parents, coming to a new environment is like a big thing, big change for them. with admin not around, we were short handed! at that time i wished i had 10 hands and heads!

then in the afternoon the K1 and K2 nearly full class for both. 2 teachers handling them were like... but luckily they do understand what we say they are more obedient, and follow instructions well, luckily we had ah ma to help with arranging the tables and chairs for snacks time and bringing kids to toilet. thank goodness, she stayed behind to help!

then today! wooh, i finally get to see my P1 kids (last yr k2), so sad, felt quite empty when i do not get to see them when school starts last week. they were the batch who are pretty close to me, especially delle, she keep on coming up to me telling how fierce her chinese teacher is, telling me that she had grown taller, hugging me and sharing the things that happened in her new sch. N soong wen too, telling me how naughty that his classmates are, sharing with me the no. of teachers that he has... n more like parker, clara and also Ilyas, heard his voice of fighting sound with parker, it was like i just saw them yesterday. their laughs, their actions, running up and down in the hall, was like yesterday... so familiar, felt so happy to see them... miss them so much.

a busy and tire week had passed. looking to the new week with new and exciting things to happen. FIGHTING!!!

IN ABOUT ONE AND A HALF HOUR, IT WILL BE YEAR 2009!!!

Wishing all who visit this blog to be blessed for the new year. :)
Wishing those around me, those i love, to be blessed and healthy for the whole new year. :)
Hopefully 2009 will be a good and exciting year for all of us. !!!!


YIPEE!! everyone is a year older.

LOL!

27th Dec...

4 more days will be 2009...
the same old phrase : time really flies... that will be the most appropriate phrase to describe...
a rather stressful but enjoyable year that i had.
i always told my kids that i love 2007 than 2008.
why? 2008-- it was a new chapter that i have stepped into - working, on top of that, it wasnt smooth sailing yr especially in the first half of 2008. i was always sick and for the first time i sprained my back when i just wan to pick up a shirt, my ear almost went deaf because of the phlegm that was choking up... on and on...

though it was not smooth-sailing, there were still happy things and lucky things that happened, hmmm.... very little but enough. :)

2008, it was also a very busy year. everyday after knocking off at 4.30pm, got to rush off for tuition classes, one after another, all the way till 9 plus. it is rather busy but it was fulfiling and its a joy to see all my kids growing day after day. they might be sensible at times, naughty at times, sickening at times, fun and cute at times, i'm gald and honoured that i took part in their growing years.





a look and forecasting for 2009...
i will still be busy, teaching all days long. so my dear frens pls book me in advance for meetings, gatherings and celebrations. :)
hopefully i can further my studies, which means will be more busy, still not sure of what course to take, too many in mind. lol!


wishes and hopes for 2009
1. good health (everything will be smooth-sailing with good health)
2. money money comes!!! :) more the merrier
3. recently i'm interested in collecting snow globes (so anyone wants to support me by buying those, especialy precious moments :))
4. furthering my studies without much obstacles
5. good things to happen all days for me and pple ard me.
five will do, cannot be too greedy.

will come online to make new post again. :)

It's the last day of school. It's also the last day for the k2s.
Yesterday when we were on the way back to school from excursions, i was thinking to myself, do the K2s know that that will be the last excursions with us. This morning, heard from Ilyas's mum that he cried last night because he suddenly remembers that today is the last day of sch. He cried very sadly. i hope that they will always remember all the days that they had spent in school and with the school. Wish them all the best in their indivdual primary sch.

i have got no idea why i'm getting easily tired everyday despite no tuition classes. perhaps its too relax, nothing to do that's why gets tired easily. :)

finally i get to change to a bigger wardrobe for my room. and my sis and i are going to redesign our room. O yes!

i'm going to plan the christmas gathering.

29th Nov...

the longest meet the parent session i ever had.
9.45pm to 3.30pm
tiring though i din talk much but the atmosphere and mood, and also the need to talk professionally and cautiously, very exhuasting. dried up. in the end we had quickly eat up the pies which a parent bought for us in the morning at 2 plus.

i really admit that i cant talk real well with adults especially difficult parents though i hav met and communicating well with some parents. i still prefer talking kids though that might be a handful of kids who are difficult to communicate with, i still feel comfortable and happy. why?
it is easier to open their hearts and walk into them than the adults.

right now planing to take leaves for the last two weeks of dec. wohoo! christmas eve and new yr eve was declared as holidays for us. so nice. but again here comes the spring cleaning!! both my room and the school! OMG!! lot to do. dust war!!!!

2 more weeks we are going to have christmas party cum graduation party. i'm gonna to miss the K2, i had alot of fun with this class. fun and matured kids. hopefully, next yr k2 will be fun too.

finally!!! after 11 months, i'm able to rest, i'm able to stick to the com again! haha~!!
the kids had finish their exams, and they are on holidays, with many program lined up for them by their parents, so nice~~ how i wish i could be like them. i wan to go overseas for holidays... do lotsa shopping.

recently, i'm watching "we got married". is a nice variety show from korea, you guys can try watching it is nice and romantic. i love alshin couple. so so nice....

in another one and half months, will be 2009!! arh~~ so fast. i'm preparing to study next yr, hopefully it will come true and wish i can handle it well. :)

i'll do more posting during this one and half months, i know that there are pple missing my entries very very badly.

indigestions! crazy! @#$#&%$R*^%
i cant imagine dinner is so !!!!! i think i hate the sight of her. irritated!

cant imagine my first entry after so long is ANGER!!!
irritated! irritated! irritated!!
i guess without say who is "her", you guys should know, right?
husband and wife of the same kind! my sis was right to call her a hippopo ( hypocrite)
likes to act; likes to be great ~~~funny~~~
arhHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~ irritating!! irritated!!! sickening!!!! sicko!

i'm back again. :)
after leaving the blog for dust for a long long time. time to clean webs and the dust. haha.
on a few incidents, i wanted to blog but the computer just won't allow me to log on to blogger.
don why too.

over the recent months, many things happen.
i was very touched to have recieved sl birthday sms from oversea. BUT she sent it before my birthday and saying happy belated birthday to me. but still very touch cos she remember to send her wishes. whereas there are pple who did not. i wish to see sl soon. :)

everyday jus passes so fast. so fast that i have got no time to sit and reflect of what has been happening. everyday, at the end of the day, i would just knock out on the bed. Zzzzzzz.
i still wish that i will be able to squeeze out sometime for studies or do some reading.

i want to have an oversea holidays!!!! i really wish to be out of singapore for a few days, look at the world out of singapore! can i have some volunteers? please!!!! :)

last entry was 12 apr.
haha! looks like i have been MIA for a long long time.
after busying for the near one month, finally i get find myself a little rest.
meet my friends last night, we realised that we have not been meeting for 2 months already.
well, i'm not only the ones who is very busy, there's another one too.

this coming sat, will be meeting al they all. i realised that we will only meet when there's someone birthday. haha! nvm. each gathering is very precious and should make full use of it.

after finish settling the kids for their SA1, right now i have got to start busying with my preschoolers and the coming term.
it seems to be endless.
tiring but happy.
everyday is so precious and i'm always racing with the time.

sometimes i wished i could just throw everything away and do nth.
but i know i will never bear to do it.
having able to reach this point has never been easy or smooth sailing
not grumbling but felt fortunate.
i have met the right people at the right time, i shouldn't be asking for more.

next month, the school will be having united nations party.
right now i'm editing the school website.
do feel free to have a look at website and at the same time introduce it to pple who need it.
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