不知不觉已过了五年，不知为什么有时会不禁想起你。
或许是因为对当时你一声不响的离开而感到好奇吧。。。还是因为对你。。。
努力尝试把你忘了，但种种的回忆又会再次浮现在眼前。为什么会这样呢？
你过得还好吗？希望现在的你是健康幸福的。。。。。。

人--- 也只不过是这样而已。
生。老。病。死。

不管你的人生是多么的轰轰烈烈，多么的多姿多彩，死后就同他人一样烧成灰。没了。那就是人生。

虽然人到最后还是会死，但是当中的生活一定要过的多姿多彩，就有如一部电视剧里的台词“人生短短几十年，一定要过得精彩，一定要笑着过每一天”这句话说得容易可是怎样才算精彩，要怎么做才能面带笑容地过每一天呢？不知道。或许就跟他人所说的一样跟着感觉走那么就可以得到快乐吧。



最近学校发生很多事。这些事情发生证明了恶人有恶报。天网恢恢疏而不漏。我对她的遭遇一点也不觉得同情，也不觉得内疚。但对于学校，我就觉得有点内疚，因为我的胆小怕事，而导致他们有些损失，我真的感到抱歉。既然事情已过去，就向前看吧，继续往前走吧~

抒发自己的感情有错吗？用些苛刻的字又有错吗？
文字是用来抒发人的心情。

thanks to someone for making my day so gloomy.
thanks to that person, if not i'll be neglecting this blog. :)

i thought u are on our side when we were chatting.
i thought u wont betray us
i thought u are like us, doesnt like her as well
yah, it is all i thought.
after today, i see thru you thoroughly.
i'm so sad that i really feel like crying.


the world is never fair.
the mister up there taught me something new today, never to trust someone easily
she might be on the same side with u when we chat.
she might agree with you on everything you said.
but in the end she is still a bitch.

well, i'm just writing feelings and thoughts on this blog.
dont come tell me, that's wrong to write those things on blog.
dont come tell me you have xin bing or shen jing bing.
its all nonsense! i din write name! i din mention who is it!


i guess i just have to keep everything to myself.

是时候了。。。

将跟2009年说byebye le...

well, 2009 doesn't seems bad for me... but there are still things that made me happy, sad, excited and angry.

in this year, there were alot of shocking news.

first was my grandpa, he had a slight stroke, but thank god he is recovering now.

next, the leaving of ilisha, i missed her so much whenever i saw her pic, the drawings and crafts she did for me. i hope she is doing well, learning and speaking mandarin well.

followed by, my third uncle from my mum side, he was diagnosed with heart problem, there blockage, he had to went through a bypass, again thank god, he is recovering too.

the most shocking news of the year will be the passing of my granduncle. he was admitted to the hospital after having stomache for several days, he was operated immediately. few days after the operation, his kidney, liver and heart failed him. he went in on 9th nov and passed away on the 8th day. it was very shocking, in my impression, he has always been very strong and healthy. we would always visit him on the 2nd day of cny. i felt sad for him. he and his wife do not have any children, they have a god-daughter. i was very stress and depressed for that period of time. I had an exam on the 19th a day before sending him, i wasnt able to go down to pay respect until the day before sending him off as i was busy working and preparing for the exams.


of course, there are good things that happened. I fulfilled on of my dreams; to further my studies and i passed my exams! though i did not passed with flying colors, still, i got B-! it was a relived for me. hoo...

i have bonus for this year. this is my first time getting bonus! i got increment in beginning of the year. next year, there will increment too.. that will 3rd increment since i join the school. wohoo! wonderful...

5B also celebrated 10years of friendship, and yes! we are continuing to count on the years. though we don like adding numbers to our age.... amazingly, we had 2 chalets this year. lets count on xueyin to have a chaet on her birthday next year!

xueyin's sis got married 2 weeks ago, congratulations to her. the 5Bs attended. we had alot of fun.

i think there were too many good things that happen. i had forgotten some of them... :p


我只希望在新的一年里，我身边所有的人都健康开心快乐！我不想再失去任何一个人。
而我呢，我希望自己能够更健康，向今年一样开心快乐， 一切顺利。
我们一起迎接2010年吧！！！

因为她，我的眼眶湿湿的

din see ilisha for a week. whole family is busy with moving into new house so she wasn't in school for the past one week. missed her alot. today she came. her mum brought her to sch. she came in and hugged me tightly after putting her bag down. this poor girl, she has been hugging me for the whole day. she knew she might not be able to do that after she leaves. though she is smiling, i know she is feeling sad inside.

after break-time, we told the kids that ilisha might be leaving because there's no one able to send her to sch, the kids were sad and some offered to ask their dad or mum to send ilisha to sch. we told them, if ilisha cant get a proper transport to send her to sch, this fri might be her last day, so we practiced farewell songs. this two songs almost made me cry. my eyes were watery as we sang the song, i had to find excuse to go out of the class to calm down. is not as if this is the first we sang this song, but i really feel sad to have her to leave us. i really really hope that she can really stay and graduate together with her class in dec.

i will pray hard for you. i might burst into tears. praying ...